St Pauli Murray, Pray For Us

This weekend I was able to go see “Buy the Sun”, a play about the life of Pauli Murray.  Pauli is a saint canonized by the Episcopal church who was a radical queer activist of color from the Carolinas, and one of the first women ordained a priest.   Her life was one of heartfelt, consistent, radical resistance against oppression.

As I reflect on the growing fear of prejudice, discrimination, in our time here in the south-land, I can’t think of a better patron saint to look to for a model.  St. Pauli, pray for us!

As a way of reflecting and connecting with her example, I share a poem she wrote that seems particularly appropriate.  Also, a post I shared this summer during LGBT Pride month.

Your progressive redneck preacher,



I sing of a new American
Separate from all others,
Yet enlarged and diminished by all others.
I am the child of kings and serfs, freemen and slaves,
Having neither superiors nor inferiors,
Progeny of all colors, all cultures, all systems, all beliefs.
I have been enslaved, yet my spirit is unbound.
I have been cast aside, but I sparkle in the darkness.
I have been slain but live on in the river of history.
I seek no conquest, no wealth, no power, no revenge:
I seek only discovery
Of the illimitable heights and depths of my own being.
“Prophecy”, St. Pauli Murray, queer activist of color and priest in the Episcopal church, 1969


Pauli Murray: A Saint For Our Times (And My Neighborhood)

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Yesterday I was reminded that November 20 is Pauli Murray’s birthday — her 105th, to be precise.

Imp-OnlyAnd who is Pauli Murray, a few of you may ask?

She was — and is — many things. One of them is my neighborhood saint.

Yes, she spent most of her childhood just a couple blocks from my place, in a house we’ll see in a moment.

But neighborhood bragging rights are only a small part of it. A major exhibit about her is up at a nearby place called The Scrap Exchange (a very interesting and unique project itself; but that’s another story), and yesterday I re-visited it, with some folks from my Carolina posse.
Pauli Murray was born in 1910, in Baltimore, but soon afterward orphaned, she came to Durham NC and was raised by aunts and grandparents.We were all completely smitten by her, yet again. So let’s get a few facts out there:

Thereafter, in her life she was, among other things (hang on to your hats!) —

— a pioneering civil rights crusader, who had a big hand in the behind the scenes work on the landmark 1954 Brown Supreme Court desegregation decision;

— a pioneering modern American feminist, even if many feminist-identified folks never heard of her (tsk tsk if you haven’t); she was even a founder of the National Organization of Women;

— a pioneering women’s lawyer, who helped put gender equality in the great 1964 Civil Rights Act;

“Imp”; ‘Dude”; “Crusader”; how was Pauli Murray to fit these identities together?



— a pioneer in bending and busting the boundaries of gender; kind of a lesbian, kind of not, kind of trans, kind of not, all and none of the above;

–and a pioneer in religion, the first black American woman ordained a priest in the Episcopal church; and

— yes, as of the summer of 2012, eighteen years after her death in 1985, she was declared a saint by the Episcopal church (her gender nonconformity notwithstanding).

That’s for starters. (Sorry if I said “pioneering” so many times, but that’s just what Pauli was for most of her life.)

Sign-Unifying-PrincipleBut how did these fragments and competing impulses (this is a partial list) get knitted together for her? In a surprising way.

Her path is the main subject of the Scrap Exchange exhibit. And in marking it out, the display uses names that Pauli chose for herself,  in her reflective writing, including “Imp,” “Dude,” and “Crusader.” All these fit well enough. Yet after six-plus tumultuous decades, these and other aspects of her life ultimately came together in religion: she had been a “church lady” all her life, but only after she was 60 did she decide to join the push for ordaining women in her Episcopal church by becoming a priest  herself.

Religion: Pauli Murray the priest brought her identities together.



She told this story in her Autobiography. She also told the powerful story of her family in a group memoir, “Proud Shoes.”

Now, besides the exhibit, the Pauli Murray Project ind working to make Pauli Murray’s remarkable life and work better known. And to do that, besides the exhibit, they want to turn her family home into a national historical landmark.

That work has started, and of course more funds and supporters are needed.

Text from the first edition of “Proud Shoes,” in which Pauli Murray faced the pain of a heritage of slavery, segregation and other kinds of discrimination but told this story in a personally and collective life-affirming way.

So our posse moved from the exhibit several blocks away and visited the house.

The sign at her house site, on Carroll Street in Durham. The roses need cutting; but they’re lovely, aren’t they?

The original  house, from which a century of additions and siding and repairs is all being scraped away and removed, is not exactly in its best condition right now. But its renewal is underway, one board, one brick at a time.

In this photo are several members of the Fayetteville Chapter of NOW, the National Organization of Women, which Pauli Murray helped create. At the left is the Fair Wendy, who is also doing the architectural work on recovering the original house design, and guiding the reconstruction for authenticity. As one can see, there is much to do.

From this house, members of her family struggled against segregation, and for the education of freed people, and their full entry into society, against often very steep odds. And Pauli Murray’s remarkable, multi-faceted career, will make it a landmark, a resource, and a font of inspiration for many “causes,” for many struggles. As this display seeks to summarize it:

Pauli Murray brought all these and more parts of life together in what was for her an ultimately triumphant and affirmative integration. As Quakers would put it, her life truly “preached,” and still does.

Pauli Murray: Queer saint who stood for racial and gender equality

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Pauli Murray by Laurel Green

Human rights champion and queer saint Pauli Murray is a renowned civil rights pioneer, feminist, author, lawyer and the first black woman ordained as an Episcopal priest. Her feast day is today (July 1).

Murray was arrested and jailed for refusing to sit in the back of a segregated bus in Virginia in 1938 — 15 years before Rosa Parks became a national symbol for resisting bus segregation. In 1941 she organized restaurant sit-downs in the nation’s capital — 20 years before the famous Greensboro sit-ins.

She was approved for trial inclusion in the Episcopal Church’s book of saints, “Holy Women, Holy Men” in a 2012 vote. Usually the Episcopalians wait until 50 years after a person has died before making granting sainthood, but for Murray the church set aside the rule and approved “trial use” of materials commemorating her now.

Murray was attracted to women and her longest relationships were with women, so she is justifiably considered a lesbian. But she also described herself as a man trapped in a woman’s body and took hormone treatments in her 20s and 30s, so she might even be called transgender man today.

Others have written extensively about her many accomplishments, but material on Murray’s sexuality is hard to find. She did not speak publicly about her sexual orientation or gender identity issues, but she left ample evidence of these struggles in her letters and personal writings.

Pauli Murray (Wikipedia)

Anna Pauline (Pauli) Murray (November 20, 1910 – July 1, 1985) was born in Baltimore, Maryland and raised in Durham, North Carolina. She became aware of her queer sexuality early in life. In Pauli Murray and Caroline Ware: Forty Years of Letters in Black and White, historian Anne Firor Scott explains:

“In adolescence Murray began to worry about her sexual nature. She later said that she was probably meant to be a man, but had by accident turned up in a woman’s body. She began to keep clippings about various experiments with hormones as a way of changing sexual identity…. In 1937, at the initiative of a friend, she had been admitted to Bellevue Hospital in New York, and during her stay there she examined her worries about her sexual nature in writing, and said that she hoped to move toward her masculine side… . She continued for years to discuss the developing medical literature about hormones, thinking they might help her. She discussed the possibility of homosexuality with doctors; she knew that she was attracted to very feminine, often white, women, and she knew as well that… she was not physically attracted to men. This conflict would continue for the rest of her life.”

Murray’s queer side is discussed in many books, including American Eugenics: Race, Queer Anatomy, and the Science of Nationalism by Nancy Ordover and To Believe in Women: What Lesbians Have Done For America by Lillian Faderman, and in the play “To Buy the Sun: The Challenge of Pauli Murray” by Lynden Harris.

A graduate of New York’s Hunter College, Murray was rejected from the University of North Carolina UNC Chapel Hill’s graduate school in 1938 because of her race. She became a civil rights activist. In the late 1930s Murray was also seeking psychological help and testosterone implants from doctors in an effort to “treat” her homosexuality by becoming more male.

Eager to become a civil rights lawyer, Murray was the only woman in her law school class at Howard University in Washington, DC. She graduated first in her class in 1944, but was rejected by Harvard because of her gender — even though President Franklin Roosevelt wrote a letter of support for her after Murray contacted First Lady Eleanor Roosevelt. Instead Murray studied law at the University of California in Berkeley. She wrote numerous influential publications, and NAACP used her arguments in the landmark 1954 Brown v. Board of Education case that ended racial segregation in U.S. public schools.

Her ongoing frienship with Roosevelt is described in the 2016 book, “The Firebrand and the First Lady: Portrait of a Friendship: Pauli Murray, Eleanor Roosevelt, and the Struggle for Social Justice” by women’s studies professor Patricia Bell-Scott.

In the early 1960s President John Kennedy appointed Murray to the Commission on the Status of Women Committee. She worked with Martin Luther King Jr. and Bayard Rustin on civil rights — and criticized the 1963 March on Washington at the time for excluding women from leadership. In 1965 she became the first African American to receive a law doctorate from Yale. A year later she co-founded the National Organization for Women.

Instead of retiring, Murray launched a new career at age 62. She entered New York’s General Theological Seminary in 1973, before the Episcopal Church allowed women priests. She was ordained in 1977. She celebrated her first Holy Eucharist at the Chapel of the Cross in Chapel Hill, NC — the same church where her grandmother, a slave, was baptized.

After a lifetime as a human rights activist, she drew on her own experience to preach a powerful vision of God’s justice. In a 1977 sermon recorded in Pauli Murray: Selected Sermons and Writings, she said:

It was my destiny to be the descendant of slave owners as well as slaves, to be of mixed ancestry, to be biologically and psychologically integrated in a world where the separation of the races was upheld by the Supreme Court of the United States as the fundamental law of our Southland. My entire life’s quest has been for spiritual integration, and this quest has led me ultimately to Christ, in whom there is no East or West, no North or South, no Black or White, no Red or Yellow, no Jew or Gentile, no Islam or Buddhist, no Baptist, Methodist, Episcopalian, or Roman Catholic, no Male or Female. There is no Black Christ, no White Christ, no Red Christ – although these images may have transitory cultural value. There is only Christ, the Spirit of Love.

Murray died of cancer on July 1, 1985 at age 74. Her best known book is Proud Shoes: The Story of an American Family (1956), her memoir of growing up as a mixed-race person in the segregated South.

The image of Pauli Murray at the top of this post is part of the “In the Spirit of Those Who Led the Way” series by North Carolina artist Laurel Green. She creates digital artworks in conversation with more traditional media.

“Pauli Murray” by Angela Yarber

A new icon of Pauli Murray was painted for the “Holy Women Icons” series by Angela Yarber, an artist, scholar, dancer, minister and LGBT-rights activist based in North Carolina. It is one of nearly 50 color images of her folk feminist icons included in her 2014 book “Holy Women Icons.” Her colorful icon shows Murray with a closed eyes and large heart inscribed with the words:

“When her throat grew weary,
Her heart pulsed a song of hope,
Of justice, of equality,
Unconstrained by the binaries
That bind.
Authentically free.”

For more info on Yarber, see my previous post “Artist paints holy lesbians and other women.”

The trial use commemorations of the Episcopal Church include this new prayer:

Liberating God, we thank you most heartily for the steadfast courage of your servant Pauli Murray, who fought long and well: Unshackle us from bonds of prejudice and fear so that we show forth your reconciling love and true freedom, which you revealed through your Son and Our Savior Jesus Christ.

Pauli Murray image from Holy Women, Holy Men on Facebookcelebrating saints in the Episcopal Church, produced by the Paradoxy Center at St. Nicholas Church.

Related links:

Pauli Murray profile at

Pauli Murray Named to Episcopal Sainthood (

Paul Murray bio (Episcopal Diocese of North Carolina)

Queering Iconography, Painting Pauli Murray” by Angela Yarber (Feminism and Religion Blog)

Holy Women, Holy Men: Celebrating the Saints: Additional Commemorations” (Episcopal resource including Pauli Murray)

Convention OKs continued trial use of ‘Holy Women, Holy Men’(Episcopal News Service)

This post is part of the GLBT Saints series by Kittredge Cherry at the Jesus in Love Blog. Saints, martyrs, mystics, prophets, witnesses, heroes, holy people, deities and religious figures of special interest to lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgender (LGBT) and queer people and our allies are covered on appropriate dates throughout the year.


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